Sometimes I feel a little bit like i'm out of the loop or i'm missing out on something or whatever. I have this friend, she's the most lovely of all friends and she's in love with this guy. The sort of love people write about you know they meet in the summer and all that what not but anyway. So she'll be telling me about him and how she longs to have him back and me having a completely non existent love life find myself vicariously living through hers and i've come to realise i've never really felt for anyone. I suffer under a monstrous sensitivity and i've always been shy. Maybe not your typical doesn't really talk to people sits alone shy but the sort of shy that stops people from really ever getting to know me but has me getting to know everyone right down to their core. I don't really mind it, I like to have people feel at ease like they can say whatever they'd like and i'm no tell tale. It's just I miss out on this whole confiding part. The only thing it seems the girls I know complain about is their arses and the boy they are currently swooning over and I just don't get it. I feel quite strange or awkward most of the time because i'm often being told i'm distant or seem a little vancant at times but i'm really thinking all the time. Analysing people, myself, trying to maintain. How do you know what you really like doing? There is so much influence everywhere how can you be sure the decisions you're making are your own? I think I like going and doing all of these things but how do I know i'm doing them for me. so many things i'd like to ask. I shouldn't be so observant of everything, it's probably better to just let somethings slide. There is so much confusing evergy about blocking me lately. sound like such a blogger haha. I could write for miles about what i'm thinking about, the secret conversations with my concience and all in my head.

I've fallen in love with these whimsical drawings of scrawny girls.

Here is my attempt, it's tittle is "luna waits, always patient. She cradles her loneliness like a new born child." Bit long for a tittle but who says they have to be short right?